#paranoid anon

[simplepotatofarmer]

do you mean reblogging ai art or like. reblogging posts criticizing ai?

-paranoid anon

oh, i mean reblogging AI art or AI videos.

i have a pretty absolutest stance on generative AI (and i need to clarify i mean generative AI) and i genuinely don't like seeing it. i think training it on real people is actively dangerous and i'm not going to support it even tangentially.

we've seen what propaganda and smear campaigns can do even without it.

[sgt-kpr]

Paranoid anon, glad the dentist went well <3

I’ve added black out curtains to the glass door (they don’t lock) and I’ve taken it upon myself to lock the downstairs doors

I don’t know why I’m freaking out when I have a history of auditory hallucinations, I’m just a paranoid coward

Love ya man

Hey, that's a good step to keep yourself safe. You got spooked, it's reasonable to be afraid. Ain't a coward for that.

[ask-paranoidanon]

Greetings everyone! It’s sure been a while hasn’t it? Feels like no time at all has passed since I was last active, but apparently six or so months have gone by? Not really sure how that happened, but nonetheless, I’ve returned with news of this blogs future!

As I mentioned in my last few posts, I’m thinking of rebooting the whole blog from the start with better understanding of where the plot is going and how to get there. I’ve decided this is the route I want to take, but unfortunately my time constraints are still in place so posts may still folllow my original month long hiatus schedule. Anyone who followed the blog is probably used to it by now, though it’s still something I wish I could promise would get better.

Going forward, I’m going to make a separate blog for the reboot as planned, as well as make a few design changes to the main cast. I’ve been working on them here and there and still might change a few things before the new blog is up and running. Here’s a peek at the main two:

As you can see, Anon takes more inspiration from her design later in the blogs lifespan. Originally I didn’t have a concret idea of the story’s endgame, so Anon just had her official design that I occasionally removed elements from depending on how lazy I was feeling. This is generally how she’ll look from here on out, inconsistent artstyle aside.

As for Cul, she’s another of the key characters in the blog right from the start. In the original story, Cul was added haphazardly as a result of picking asks from the Vocaloid Amino, where people knew I shipped AnoCul and assumed Cul would be present in the story. This was kinda a mistake on my part, but I rolled with it and now I know for sure what Cul’s role is and how to reflect that in her design. It might see a few more changes before the reboot kicks off, but I’ve narrowed down the basics.

I’m currently working on locking down the story beats, so it’ll be a while yet before you all might hear from me again. The premise of the story has been expanded, so rather than working with a singular room for Anon to interact with, it’ll instead be an entire house for her to roam around. I’m really looking forward to all we can do with this new setup, and I hope you guys can have fun with it to!

Having said that, I’ll see you guys later!

- Mun.

[yourmoonmomma]

are my classmates being nice to me because they're being nice or is there a different reason? - I'm a paranoid anon and I don't like sudden changes :(

Because they're being nice <3

[frownyalfred]

Everyone (league/kids/Alfred/Gordon) has probably on some level and at some point, even if only briefly, has thought that Bruce was being too cautious or paranoid

And nearly each time Bruce has been proven right

But he's not smug about it because he doesn't want to be right he wants to be wrong

“I don’t know why you’re being so paranoid about this.”

Bruce withholding the memory of the last time he was right about this (and paid the price) with gritted teeth:

[churomo]

wait.. you’re Filipino Chinese ??

same?????

woaw…

OHHH!!! YES HELLO!!!! :DD

i’m not very personal online so this is already like forbidden level 10 lore … but i’m a senior now so i kinda wanna change that forrealsies

[annabelle--cane]

encanto on the official gwen playlist?? i mean Family Issues(tm) were implied, but huh. encanto on the official gwen playlist. would be really funny if The Mr Bonzo Theme actually was one of her top listens and then Lena does. that

oh, anon. the bonzo theme is the first song.

and. okay I went to go take a screenshot of the specific encanto song on her playlist, but I really need you to see this triple whammy.

gwendolyn, my love, there is no saving you.

[ask-steven-stevenson]

hey dad!!!!! howre you.... holding up. im back to usual if. you cant tell by the everything

the everything he is referring to is!!!! hes a bug again. something is slightly different however. hes a bit.... fluffier???? he has noticeable fur now.

//@the-flys-buzz (i may not have much more lore wise but GO MY WEIRD CRYPTID ANATOMY STUFF (hes growing a winter coat...))

[HEL. You scared him.]

“E-h.? . OH.! H. Hello. Yes.. I am fine.”

“W. Why did you seem hesitant to.. ask..- d. Did he tell you something..???

“B. But! That’s new. Well. I mean the.. fluffiness..? What’s that about?”

[poetrysmackdown]

hi hiii i wanted to say that your account is so refreshing to see, esp with the passion you have for the arts. as someone who's been meaning to read (and write) more poetry, do you have any recommendations? some classics that everyone and their mothers know? perhaps some underrated pieces that changed you? or even just authors you like, I'm very open to suggestions :]]

Hi! Thank you so much for this kind ask :) So exciting that you’re looking to delve deeper into reading and writing! I had to take a little time to answer this because my thoughts were all over the place lol.

For a review of notable/classic poems/poets, I honestly just recommend looking at lists online or, hell, just binging Wikipedia pages for different countries’ poetry if that’s something you’re into, just to get a sense of the chronology. I read one of those little Oxford Very Short Introductions on American Poetry and thought it was pretty good, but online is quicker if you’re just searching for poets or movements to hone in on. Poetry Foundation also has lots of resources, in addition to all the poems in their database. I guess my one big classic recommendation would have to be Emily Dickinson (<3), but really the best move is just to find a poet you already enjoy and then look around to see who their peers were/are, who they were inspired by, who they’ve maybe translated here and there, etc. and follow it down the line as far as you can.

For some personal recs, here are some collections I’ve really enjoyed over the past two years or so. Bolded favorites, and linking where select poems from the book have been published online. But also, if you want a preview of a couple poems from another of the books to see if they interest you, DM me and I can send them over! You can also feel free to pilfer through my poetry tag for more stuff lol

Autobiography of Death by Kim Hyesoon trans. Don Mee Choi

Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings by Joy Harjo

DMZ Colony by Don Mee Choi

Hardly War by Don Mee Choi

Whereas by Layli Long Soldier

Geography III by Elizabeth Bishop

Dictee by Theresa Hak Kyung Cha

Don’t Let Me Be Lonely: An American Lyric by Claudia Rankine

Mouth: Eats Color—Sagawa Chika Translations, Anti-Translations, & Originals by Sawako Nakayasu

The Selected Poems of Osip Mandelstam trans. W.S. Merwin and Clarence Brown

The Branch Will Not Break by James Wright

This Journey by James Wright

God’s Silence by Franz Wright

Duino Elegies by Rainer Maria Rilke (the translation I read was by Alfred Corn—I thought it was great, but idk if there are better ones out there!)

DMZ Colony, Hardly War, Dictee, Don’t Let Me Be Lonely, and partially Whereas are all book-length poems with some prose poetry and varying levels of weirdness/denseness/multilingualism—if you were to pick one to start with, I’d say do Don’t Let Me Be Lonely or Whereas. Mouth: Eats Color is some experimental translations of Japanese modernist poet Chika Sagawa, with other translations and some of Nakayasu’s original stuff mixed in—it's definitely a bit disorienting but ultimately I remember having such fun with it, as much fun as Nakayasu probably had making it. It’s a book that emphasizes co-creation and a spirit of play, and completely changed my attitude towards translation.

If you’re less interested in that kind of formal fuckery stuff though (I get it), can’t go wrong with the other books! Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings is the one I read most recently, and it’s great—Harjo also featured in Round 1! Franz Wright also featured, and God's Silence is the collection which "Night Walk" comes from. James Wright (father of Franz) is one of my favorite poets of all time, though his poetry isn’t perfect. Even so, I’m honestly surprised he’s not doing numbers on Tumblr—Mary Oliver was a big fan of his, even wrote her "Three Poems for James Wright" after his death.

I mentioned in another post that one of my favorite poets is Paul Celan, so I’ll also recommend him here. I read Memory Rose into Threshold Speech which is a translated collection of his earlier poems, but it’s quite long if you’re just getting to know him as a poet—fortunately, both Poetry Foundation and Poets.org have a ton of his poems in their collections. There’s also an article by Ilya Kaminsky about him titled “Of Strangeness That Wakes Us” (!!!!!) that’s a great place to start, and is honestly kind of my whole mission statement when I’m reading and writing poetry. Looking at the books I’ve recommended above, a lot of them share feelings of separateness or alienation—from others, from oneself, from one’s country, from language—that breed strange, private modes of expression. That tends to be what I’m drawn to personally, and that’s some of what Kaminsky talks about.

Sorry of the length of this—I hope it's useful as a jumping-off point! And if you or anyone ends up exploring any of these poets, let me know what you think! If folks wanna reply with recommendations themselves too that'd be great :)

[buwheal]

ヾ(•ω•`)o Hiiii!!!! Don't worry about it! Don't be afraid. It's not real.

Excerpt from: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Black_Phone

"In 1978, a local serial child abductor and murderer only known as "The Grabber" prowls the streets of a suburb in North Denver. Finney Blake and his younger sister Gwen live in the area with their abusive, alcoholic father Terrence, whose wife committed suicide after having a series of disturbing psychic dreams. Finney is frequently bullied and harassed at school, but his friend and classmate Robin fends off the bullies.

Having inherited her mother's ability, Gwen dreams about the Grabber's abduction of Bruce, a boy Finney knew from Little League. Two police detectives, Wright and Miller, interview Gwen at school, believing that she may have knowledge about the Grabber. When Terrence learns about the questioning, he beats her with a belt. Soon afterward, the Grabber abducts first Robin and then Finney.

Finney awakens in a soundproofed basement with a disconnected black rotary dial telephone on one wall. It begins to ring on its own at times; Finney hears only static when he first answers it, but then hears Bruce's voice telling him about a floor tile he can remove in order to dig an escape tunnel. Finney starts to dig, but the foundations of the house are sunk too deeply for him to go beneath them.

The Grabber brings Finney a meal and leaves the basement door unlocked. As Finney is about to sneak out, he gets a call from Billy, another past victim. Billy warns Finney that the Grabber is waiting at the top of the basement stairs to punish him if he tries to leave, as part of a cruel game. At Billy's suggestion, Finney uses a hidden length of cable to climb up to the basement window; however, his weight pulls out the grate covering the pane, leaving him with no way to reach it again.

As Gwen confides to Terrence about her dreams of Finney's abduction, Wright and Miller question an eccentric man named Max who is staying in the area with his brother and who has shown great interest in the Grabber's crimes. It is revealed that Finney is being held in Max's basement, and that the Grabber is his brother.

Finney receives a call from Griffin, a third victim, who gives him the combination to the lock securing the house's front door and tells him that the Grabber has fallen asleep. He sneaks out and unlocks the door, but the Grabber quickly recaptures Finney after his dog Samson barks to wake him. A fourth victim, a juvenile delinquent named Vance, calls to tell Finney that he can break through a wall and into a freezer in the adjacent room. Finney does so, but finds the freezer door locked. As Finney despairs over his fate, he receives one last call from Robin, who urges him to stand up for himself and fight back by packing the phone receiver with dirt to use as a bludgeon.

After seeing the Grabber's house in a vision, Gwen calls Wright and Miller to give them the address. The police rush to the house and find the bodies of the Grabber's victims buried in the basement. Meanwhile, Max realizes Finney is being held in the basement and rushes to free him, but the Grabber kills him with an axe and attacks Finney, having decided to end his game. Finney uses the byproducts from his previous escape attempts to trap the Grabber in a pit he has dug, beats him with the receiver, and breaks his neck with the phone cord as his past victims taunt him. "

fucked up thing to send him btw

[brucie-baby]

pls share your ocd Bruce thoughts. as in your thoughts about Bruce having ocd. Pls and tanks

[big warning for intrusive thoughts, compulsions, paranoia. i do list specific ocd thoughts in this post. please be careful and don't read if those might affect you in any negative way.]

his compulsions mostly lie around keeping his family safe. he spends a while each night after patrol doing a perimeter check and ensuring all the security is online/working (one night he accidentally fell asleep in the cave and didn't wake up until morning - alfred woke up startled to see bruce checking his pulse because you fell asleep without checking and now he's dead he's dead and it's your fault).

he struggles a lot with intrusive thoughts; they're quite difficult to combat because he knows they aren't real but also a fair few of them are based on things that have happened to him in the past so he's more than aware that they're still possible (e.g. your son is dead somewhere, go find him; your friend has turned evil, check you have your defence against them and get ready to use it). he often just gets incredibly graphic images in his head, and he digs his nails into his skin until it goes away.

another thought he struggles a lot with is 'this person is an imposter. they are wearing someone else's face. this is not the person you know'. this is one that he definitively knows isn't true but also it's happened before so it can happen again. it makes him feel a little silly whenever this happens, because his way around it is to find somebody he does trust in that moment and stay near them whilst keeping a subtle eye on the 'imposter', and it makes him feel like a little kid hiding behind his mother's legs at a gala all over again.

there are some positives though!! he's not too sure why but these paranoid thoughts aren't often in regards to j'onn, so occasionally he'll request for j'onn to scan someone's mind to check if they are who they say they are, and j'onn does it with no questions asked. j'onn doesn't fully understand why bruce needs him to do this but he does recognise the spike in anxiety just before bruce asks and the relief bruce feels after, and so he does it because he knows it helps his friend, even if he doesn't know why.

(sometimes, when it's just him and the 'imposter' in the room, he just leaves. he doesn't explain. he doesn't say goodbye. he just leaves. he tells himself that it's to ensure his own safety. he ignores the way it feels like fleeing.)

he has a lot of little compulsions too, like rapping his knuckles against a specific part of the wall before using the zeta tube (if he doesn't, the transport will rip them apart). whenever somebody questions it, he says it's for luck. this leads to the team believing batman to be incredibly superstitious. the only people that know the truth are dick, jason, tim and alfred. eventually he does tell clark and diana, and he stops trying to hide it around the rest of the batfamily, but he does not like people knowing about it.

[ask-paranoidanon]

Another doodle that came about from me realizing I haven’t drawn Anon standing up since deciding on the reboot approach.

I have a hard time drawing characters just kinda..standing, so I run into the issue a lot of wanting them to be doing something more dynamic, but not actually having the ability to draw that way.

That’s my reasoning for why Anon is picking at her clothes, anyway.

Do not perceive Cul.

- mun.

[artificial-radiance]

Can you tell us anything about Paralyzed please I've been voting that guy on every poll and even though he finally won I'm so impatient. (Read as silly, not hurrying you! Just curious what you're gonna do with one of my favorite characters from the game)

You're fine, one of my partners probably feels much the same haha

Paralyzed would be similar to Presence (and Quarry) in that he tries avoiding your line of sight, but he isn't as good as staying hidden. He wouldn't be much of a talker either, and is very much a deer in the headlights when you do find him. He's very "him" - he doesn't trust you or your actions. You are fully capable of scaring him to death if you push him too hard.

Voice of the Solace will push you to try helping him escape with you.

[r1poutmygvtz]

omg i just saw through the dysmorphia for a couple seconds and damn my wrists are tiny and my hands are kinda boney, i wish the dysmorphia would stay away because that motivated me to keep going SO HARD

(the pictures aren't the best but it's all i got :,))

right:

left:

[straws-and-sunflowers]

I feel like after learning Luffy hates spice Sanji will put spicy food in the fridge so it's the first thing you see as a way to discourage luffy from stealing from the fridge because I know damn well Luffy isn't checking what he's reaching for, as long as it isn't vegetable looking he's good

You know damn well in the dead of night at 3 on the fucking morning Luffy isn’t checking. He trusts Sanji.

…..when he grabbed that spicy chicken sandwich from the fridge and took a bite.

He knew right then and there he would rather STARVE then eat the rest.

He became fucking paranoid man, he’s just like me fr, fr checking to see if it’s spicy.

It could be pasta, it could be meat…

It could even be a cake if Sanji was devious enough.

That’s why he goes to Law’s ship, because UNLIKE SOME NORTH BLUE’S this one is pretty and has NON SABOTAGED FOOD.

[ikamigami]

Yeah something I am super worried about is that after New Moon blasted Earth with star power, which probably made the astrals even angrier, he's now working with Dark Sun, who has a wither storm incubating as a pet and he's going to use that for something, Tauros is coming here in a few weeks and who knows if Solar's also going to emerge in that time, and if everything happens at once, Dark Sun and New Moon bringing out the dragon, Tauros being on the planet, Monty and Puppet trying and possibly failing to ditch the core thingy which would make Tauros even more angry, who knows even Lunar's sneezing fit might make them more annoyed since he used star power, and who even knows what the Creator is doing he might be ready to spring out as soon as this all comes together, it feels like we're about to have something go very wrong

You're absolutely right, dear anon.. it doesn't look good at all.. :(

And I have a feeling that in all this chaos Sun will die.. it'll be a disaster.. everything will fall apart..

I'm anxious yet excited to see how all of this will play out..

Though what's interesting to me is what Dark Sun wants to achieve.. but what's even more interesting is what Creator is planning to do cause he didn't make any dang move since he tried to kidnap Lunar.. it's worrying.. even more than what Dark Sun is doing..

Cause you know that Dark Sun can't be the biggest enemy when they show him that much.. he's antagonist of this arc..

Creator on the other hand always waits for the best opportunity.. he's like snake imo.. I don't like that he didn't make any move.. cause I doubt that he's not trying to kidnap Lunar anymore out of kindness..

I know that Dark Sun said that Creator's ego will be his downfall.. but if he was able to cheat death.. than I fear that his downfall is nowhere in sight in the near future..